lately I just been feeling like the people in my life will understand what I'm going through or what I feel. I think maybe they assume I'm just being sensitive and traumatic or that can't be that bad. someone even said that to me when I just said that I woke up in my stomach was still hurting. I'm just exhausted. everybody keeps asking me when I'm going to get a job. I was Discerning disabled 2018. it's kind of a personal decision but working could affects my Healthcare which could change my ability to work. I'm afraid and when I have thought about getting a job it seems like my symptoms tend to flare up. and I can't fix it too when I'm sick. I feel so alone. and people my age and don't always hurt this bad. it's just really isolating sometimes