Feeling Alone and Unwanted in a Toxic Family Environment

I feel so alone, living with family sucks so bad especially when they talk shit about you and you can hear it. I'm so tired of the emotional and financial abuse and just feeling so damn unwanted. if I could afford to move I would have already been gone, I tried once when I set up a GoFundMe but my sister in law found it and showed my mother in law and they all started reporting it as a scam and it got taken down, I was so close to getting out of hell and they ruined it for me, I wonder if they would even care if they knew that I think about just ending it all every day? I doubt it, bet they wouldn't even come to my funeral...... Well they probably would but only to get sympathy from everyone else and pretend that they cared. I just want out of here so bad but and I would go and live on the streets if it weren't for my fur babies, I can't abandon them because I know how it feels to be abandoned 🥹