Fainting Spells Ruining My Life

It's not fainting in the sun. It's vasovagal Syncope. Fainting for no reason and no cure. As if 13yrs of rape and abuse weren't enough or murdering parents, crackhead grandma, raising myself, etc they got to throw in fainting spells now too?! No center can help me. Doomed since birth. I got this app for others to talk to or to see how others are dealing with it. Mental health centers have been awful to me and there no other ones near me so I'm screwed there too. I'm just hopeless. I got a lot going on right now that I can't even talk about bc of judgement so I'll never be ok. I'll always be alone. I am comfortable that way. I'm used to it. But I wish I didn't have to be. Like is just destined to be no good for certain people and I'm one of them. It's a miracle I'm alive

Have you considered going to a crisis center? I walked my self into one when I realized I couldn't see a better future for myself. I felt a little silly doing it because I wasn't out of control or in a current "crisis". But it changed my life! People at mental health places can help show different pathways for healing than regular doctors. Since your on this app, it means your looking for better healing. You can't say you've tried everything until your talked to a great mental health team. I feint in the sun too. I have to drink a packet of liquid IV (hydration powder) and run myself through a few mental routines before I go out. But I've also learned to do more in mornings and evenings. I alway let someone around me know what's going on whenever I have to be outside during the day. It makes you ask the question... what could possible be a good reason for God to make my body this way?!?