Struggling with Drinking and High Cholesterol

Hello, I'm new here. I'm just trying to get support for a few things. and thought I'd give this a try. I've had high cholesterol probably most of my life. After my dad passed away in 2015, I started drinking more. I'm not really sure why. He lived in another state and I really only talked to him once in a while. But I did love him dearly. I have rules with myself. I can't start drinking until at least 8pm. but then I drink until I fall asleep. I really would like to cut back. I tell myself everyday .....today will be the day. But when 8 o'clock comes around I can't do it. I also have gained about 20 pounds. I know in my head if I just cut back drinking....my weight would come down and so would my cholesterol. So I thought I'd give this a try. Thanks for listening to me. 😊