Doubting my OCD diagnosis

For me it's what exactly is driving the feeling. If it's an uncomfort, something that'll make me, with nothing outside it, upset or uncomfortable, it's an autism behavior, but if there's the lingering overhanging feeling of "something bad is gonna happen" that's an OCD behavior. For an actual example, my fiance brushes my hair in the morning for me (my arms get too tired to but that's unrelated). I can do it, but because it's part of the schedule, if I do, it leaves me feeling a bit upset and off balance. That's an autism thing. But whenever I accidentally only brush one of my fingernails, I get this horrible feeling of dread, just hanging over me, that I have to fix it, I have to make it even (ie, touch all my fingernails) because if not, something going to happen, something bad is going to happen to me or someone or even just in general. That's an OCD behavior for me.

when I was first diagnosed with OCD, I didnt have specific obsessions, it was moreso just a persistent feeling of mild anxiety if I didnt indulge my compulsions i thought my psychiatrist was wrong for years because I thought you had to have specific obsessions for it to ""actually"" be OCD turns out my psych was right though, and now that my OCD is worse, I have specific obsessions and it's a damn nightmare obsessions can also, weirdly enough, be hard to identify as obsessions sometimes, which makes it even harder to tell funny side note though: theres an obsession that some people have about whether or not they actually have OCD, analyzing every aspect of it and feeling like they're subconsciously faking it

i was initially diagnosed w social anxiety, ocd, depression, general anxiety, adhd, & “unspecified” mood disorder about a year ago. just recently, my diagnoses have changed to borderline personality, adhd, & general anxiety. when i asked my therapist why not ocd and social anxiety anymore, she told me it was because based on my experience i would not struggle w those two things if i didn’t have borderline. the big idea around borderline is very low self esteem. this is a direct reason for my social anxiety. as for ocd, my obsessions/compulsions all relate to boosting my self esteem to feel good about myself & wanting to look good to others. examples: everything about my appearance (hair, makeup, outfit, smell, etc) & taking care of the environment (unplugging things, recycling/reusing, picking up litter, turning off lights, etc) so basically, my therapist concluded that i do have ocd tendencies, but i don’t have the actual ocd disorder. the ocd tendencies i experience are a symptom of my borderline. i hope this helps

I will turn a light switch on and off, check if a door is lock, press the door locks to make sure they're locked, make sure each oven burner is off, and check if people are hiding in spots of my apartment several times until I feel satisfied

I feel the same, it doesn't help when my mom gaslights me about it. But I always do things in certain orders, and (this is a basic example but it's what I do) if I don't feel like I turned off a light switch "right" then I do it a few more times. I'm not sure why I do it.