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NekoTeto123

388d

Today I have a lot on my mind, so sorry in advance for posting a lot. I was diagnosed by a professional with OCD, but I'm having doubts as to whether I have it or not. Sure I have fixed routines of doing certain things, but isn't that an autism thing too? It's not like I have this super big fear that's driving me to do them, but I do get very physically uncomfortable when I don't do things the "right way" each time. And I do have compulsions that also make me uncomfortable when I don't indulge them, but can't that be explained by my other diagnoses? If you guys could share your experiences with OCD, that would be very helpful. I just feel like I don't have the symptoms bad enough to actually have the illness. It is possible I just have a mild case of it, but an outside perspective would be nice to have.

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    • sherbaby

      376d

      For me it's what exactly is driving the feeling. If it's an uncomfort, something that'll make me, with nothing outside it, upset or uncomfortable, it's an autism behavior, but if there's the lingering overhanging feeling of "something bad is gonna happen" that's an OCD behavior. For an actual example, my fiance brushes my hair in the morning for me (my arms get too tired to but that's unrelated). I can do it, but because it's part of the schedule, if I do, it leaves me feeling a bit upset and off balance. That's an autism thing. But whenever I accidentally only brush one of my fingernails, I get this horrible feeling of dread, just hanging over me, that I have to fix it, I have to make it even (ie, touch all my fingernails) because if not, something going to happen, something bad is going to happen to me or someone or even just in general. That's an OCD behavior for me.

    • sherbaby

      376d

      For me it's what exactly is driving the feeling. If it's an uncomfort, something that'll make me, with nothing outside it, upset or uncomfortable, it's an autism behavior, but if there's the lingering overhanging feeling of "something bad is gonna happen" that's an OCD behavior. For an actual example, my fiance brushes my hair in the morning for me (my arms get too tired to but that's unrelated). I can do it, but because it's part of the schedule, if I do, it leaves me feeling a bit upset and off balance. That's an autism thing. But whenever I accidentally only brush one of my fingernails, I get this horrible feeling of dread, just hanging over me, that I have to fix it, I have to make it even (ie, touch all my fingernails) because if not, something going to happen, something bad is going to happen to me or someone or even just in general. That's an OCD behavior for me.

    • squibibi

      388d

      when I was first diagnosed with OCD, I didnt have specific obsessions, it was moreso just a persistent feeling of mild anxiety if I didnt indulge my compulsions i thought my psychiatrist was wrong for years because I thought you had to have specific obsessions for it to ""actually"" be OCD turns out my psych was right though, and now that my OCD is worse, I have specific obsessions and it's a damn nightmare obsessions can also, weirdly enough, be hard to identify as obsessions sometimes, which makes it even harder to tell funny side note though: theres an obsession that some people have about whether or not they actually have OCD, analyzing every aspect of it and feeling like they're subconsciously faking it

      • NekoTeto123

        387d

        @squibibi I really appreciate this comment. Maybe I am just overthinking it? Because I do have some symptoms and they are in line with OCD. I may just have a very mild case right now. My dad has it so it is in my genes. Thanks for sharing 💜

    • lavvend3r

      388d

      i was initially diagnosed w social anxiety, ocd, depression, general anxiety, adhd, & “unspecified” mood disorder about a year ago. just recently, my diagnoses have changed to borderline personality, adhd, & general anxiety. when i asked my therapist why not ocd and social anxiety anymore, she told me it was because based on my experience i would not struggle w those two things if i didn’t have borderline. the big idea around borderline is very low self esteem. this is a direct reason for my social anxiety. as for ocd, my obsessions/compulsions all relate to boosting my self esteem to feel good about myself & wanting to look good to others. examples: everything about my appearance (hair, makeup, outfit, smell, etc) & taking care of the environment (unplugging things, recycling/reusing, picking up litter, turning off lights, etc) so basically, my therapist concluded that i do have ocd tendencies, but i don’t have the actual ocd disorder. the ocd tendencies i experience are a symptom of my borderline. i hope this helps

      • NekoTeto123

        387d

        @lavvend3r I see, I appreciate your input on this! It very well could be a situation like yours, but I'll keep working through whatever it is in therapy.

    • Magical24

      388d

      I will turn a light switch on and off, check if a door is lock, press the door locks to make sure they're locked, make sure each oven burner is off, and check if people are hiding in spots of my apartment several times until I feel satisfied

      • Magical24

        388d

        @Magical24 I used to also turn water on and off and also count to certain numbers when putting deodorant on

        • NekoTeto123

          387d

          @Magical24 Hey thanks for the comment! I count to certain numbers when I do certain things too, but I only really check and double check things when I have somewhere to be. I always feel like I'm forgetting/will forget something if I dont. There are honestly probably other times that I do that that I can't think of rn tho.

    • Freezerburntcondom

      388d

      I feel the same, it doesn't help when my mom gaslights me about it. But I always do things in certain orders, and (this is a basic example but it's what I do) if I don't feel like I turned off a light switch "right" then I do it a few more times. I'm not sure why I do it.

      • NekoTeto123

        387d

        @Freezerburntcondom I do certain behaviors like that, like I'll take out the trash cans and put them on the street the right way each time. And when my partner tried to do it for me and did it "wrong" I got very upset by it. Thanks for your comment 💜

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