Doubting my diagnosis before starting DBT therapy

@Boobear98 I wasn't able to face my negative traits. I was able to pass as normal by internalizing all my symptoms and didn't want to lose that.

@Emily55 that is absolutely valid. I would just reccomend examining your reactions to anything to do with abandonment, criticism, feeling left out, betrayal, feelings of loneliness and numbness, and other such things for a little while to see if you may just be so used to your pain you can't recognize it, or if you've just gained so much control over your enviroment you can manage those feelings currently. You can also examine feelings of self worth as that is an integral part of bpd and why we are the way we are. Feel free to do me if you want to chat!