hello!!
this is kind of a heavy topic for me, but im in the (lengthy and painful) process of being diagnosed with DID and I thought connecting with other systems would be really helpful.
after years of no communication, I've been attempting to communicate with my alters through a collective journal and it's actually been really helpful over the past couple of months. however, when I showed her our progress, my therapist didnt really seem to "believe" that the writing was done by different alters due to handwriting similarities. it was very discouraging and I've barely been able to write in the journal since without feeling embarrassed. since then she's been extremely skeptical of my condition, and I feel like the diagnostic process has backpedaled, which is extremely frustrating because trying to get help for this has been a trainwreck.
part of me is worried that im "faking" because of this. the new stigma of "everyone who claims to have DID ever is trying to get attention online" has made me afraid that I'm faking over the littlest things (despite me never talking about it on social media)
obviously our handwriting will be similar, since we share a brain; however, some of our alters intentionally change their handwriting to feel more individual (other than the littles, who.. write like children by default since they're children.) I was wondering what it was like for other systems, since I know everyone is different.
do your alters have different handwriting? if so, does it come naturally, or is it intentional, whether for individuality or just for fun? how big are the differences, if there are any?
thank you for any input!!
-olive