How Has Derealization Affected My Impulses?

I think dissociation is the backup of the human brain during anxious situations- made to get you through them. To numb you. It just gets bad when that becomes your all the time

Yepp I have social anxiety and my derealization can be triggered by stress and when i feel anxious I go to that place and it gives me courage to not care about what ppl think. In a way sometimes it’s oddly comforting but I also hate it.

yesss absolutely. ive just dumped glasses of water on the floor before

Yeah I remember I stuck my whole hand in a jar of paint that was open beside me and another time getting this tough urge to drink the paint from the jar (I didn’t end up drinking it but it was hard to suppress)

Yes since I'm so forgetful of what's happening I don't even pay attention/mind it. I remember going out with some dude I just met to an abandoned place with his friend, and on the way there I realized it was probably a bad idea. But then immediately I forgot my thoughts, and couldnt really focus on what I was doing/what was happening, so I just continued going along in life. The place was closed and we all went home. They turned out to be nice people, but I wouldnt do this again. I just remember being really disconnected from everything that was going on