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call_me_jess

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I'm 21, my dad just died in April at 63, and I'm numb for the most part. He was my rock and now that hes gone, I dont know what to do. I refuse to hurt myself, he wouldn't want that. but maaannn are the thoughts ever so dark these days

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    • call_me_jess

      722d

      @Ms.maam hes not hurting anymore. I felt selfish to wish him to stay with me, even tho we watched him descend more and more into eternal sleep. He was hurting all over his body, nothing felt normal to him. He was always outside, working, playing sports, working on cars; I know it must've killed him Inside worse than outside when he wasn't able to go outside on his own anymore. Hes with his dad and older brother, my papaw and uncle charlie. They're raising hell up in heaven ❤️

    • call_me_jess

      722d

      He always had a great sense of humor and fought hard all the way till the end. Passed away peacefully in his sleep with me and my older brother asleep inthe hospital room with him. He was the only one in my family I had taken the time to get to know. I spent the first part of my life without my mother, only getting to know her as my father's dying. Now, I have to spend the rest of my life without my daddy. My rock. My best friend. At least he knew how to pick the day too. April 20th. He wanted to leave us on the day we could somewhat forget what happened cuz of all the smoke inhalation 😂💜

      • Ms.maam

        722d

        @call_me_jess my father passed away on April 25th, but in 2008. I was close with my father more than other people too. I cant say itll be easy because it won't be, but I can promise you that if you remember what he was like and what he would think about things you do or any saying he had or any small simple detail, it makes everything so much easier.

        • call_me_jess

          722d

          @Ms.maam hes not hurting anymore. I felt selfish to wish him to stay with me, even tho we watched him descend more and more into eternal sleep. He was hurting all over his body, nothing felt normal to him. He was always outside, working, playing sports, working on cars; I know it must've killed him Inside worse than outside when he wasn't able to go outside on his own anymore. Hes with his dad and older brother, my papaw and uncle charlie. They're raising hell up in heaven ❤️

    • Ms.maam

      722d

      I know what it's like to have a father pass away. If you need anything you can always message me ❤️

    • shariadams

      722d

      I'm so sorry about your loss. 😥 Hang in there.

    • Bmanlittle

      722d

      My condolences, even though he may be gone, he is always with you and looking out for you. Stay strong, you'll make him proud every time he looks upon you!

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