I do and am here if you want to talk

Yeah, it's already started and it's just the first week. 🥺

I am depressed all the time, but I do notice it deepens during the fall and winter months. Probably because of the holidays because growing up and when my kids were growing up, holidays were always so special, but now it's hard to get my immediate and extended family to get together for the holidays. I reminisce a lot about the days gone by where we were all so much closer and not drifted apart like we are now.

I always feel depressed but I recently realized I struggle with everything so much more during the summer and heat. I suspect I have summer seasonal depression

Seasonal depression is very real. My wife has it. She has hashimoto's and fibromyalgia and tends to be more depressed during the cold months due to the extra pain.