I get horrible anxiety before doctors appointments nearly leads to panic attacks sometimes it does I guess mainly because I have medical ptsd from things

I came up with a little worksheet for me to fill out to help reduce my appointment anxiety. It helps me get the most out of appointments. It includes things like... what are all my issues that this doctor can help with, and it lists all questions including what should I do if the worst happens? I force all my doctors to explain what all the possible steps into the future could be. They don't really like it much but getting the whole picture of what a doctor can do for me and knowing they understand the whole story is the only way I don't crumble into fear, frustration, and anxiety.

My anxiety is so bad before appts where i need to actually tell doc or ask the doc something. So bad that my therapist told me to write it all down ahead of time and practice- like you would a speech for school. Even then i will be repeating it and then freeze and sweat and panic until the appt is over without bringing up any of my concerns. The whole appts is "yup, ok, sounds good." And when they ask if you have any questions- i just say " no, i think I'm good thanks." When i am clearly NOT good😨🤐

My anxiety gets so bad before a doctors appointment that I end up not being able to sleep at night and missing the appointment.