Dealing with Intrusive Thoughts: How to Cope

Anyone else have a hard time pushing away intrusive thoughts, and they become so consuming that you’re scared that it’s actually how you feel? I get this dark cloud feeling all over some nights and get intrusive thoughts saying that it’s the end. that is so scary and it makes it so I can’t eat and I just want to sleep and hide. i’m working on writing down how I feel and thinking to myself that my thoughts are not me. but sometimes it’s so consuming that my mind tries to convince me that it’s reality and it’s what I want. i do see my therapist weekly but im scared to bring it up, because these aren’t things that I want to do, and that’s why they get so stuck in my head and become debilitating and i want to be understood correctly. just looking for some comfort or tips or someone to talk to I guess ❤️