Dealing with Depression, Anxiety, PTSD and Bipolar Disorder

Hi thanks for adding me to the group. I have recently been diagnosed with depression, anxiety possible PTSD and BIPOLAR. I have been dealing with depression for most of my life since I was about 7. I have spent most of my life not acknowledging my feelings and with the recent passing of my younger sister everything has hit me like a ton of bricks. I also deal with neck and back pain and need surgery. My therapist has taken me out of work because I just can function. Now I must find new employment my husband has been out of work since October with medical issues so I have been the total bread winner so I must go back to work. This is another way that I have to burry my feelings and issues to take care of everyone and everything else I am not sure I am mentally and physically able to. Putting myself first is hard