I hate that you’re going through this 😩💔 I don’t have any advice as to what will help but I’m here if you need to talk. Have you tried marijuana for pain? Is it legal in your area?

Nine surgeries and the pain hasn’t improved sounds like it takes much more to resolve and it seems like amputation might be the best option. I’m surprised they’re still trying to stop the pain by surgery after nine operations. I’m not sure if you’ve already visited with your DR yet but I would lay out the pros and cons when talking to your DR so they see you’ve put thought into it instead of just a last resort. It sucks that you have to go through more unnecessary pain just to have nothing improved.