My PCP is running the tests to get more information, but thus far all but one has come back normal. MY C Reactive Protein was above 10, the average max is 3. This means I have severe amounts of swelling in my body, but we have no explanation as of yet. All we know is that it is not my heart as they did an echocardiogram.
But I almost died because doctors claimed my severe chest pain that had me crying and screaming in pain and in the ER every 2 weeks for 6 months was anxiety/panic attacks. It ended up being gallbladder attacks, and by the time they admitted me to the hospital I had a stone escape and hit my pancreas. I don't trust doctors at all as a result.
The only one of my physical conditions that worsens during depression/bad CPTSD/anxiety flares is my gastrointestinal issues. I have gasteoparesis and it becomes near impossible to eat during those times.
But nothing else seems to flux like that, for worse or better.
My doc says that she's not 100% convinced it's my PTSD, and therefore is willing to do the legwork to rule out other things. But she has warned me that most/all of it could be from my body constantly being in fight/fight/fawn/freeze mode and the stress that causes.
And I can see some of that. The shoulder back and neck pain certainly could be related from tensing my muscles and I'm sure other things could be too that I don't understand.
It honestly makes me want to go to school to get a degree and become a doctor just so I can have the education. But i would rather spend my money getting a doctorate in Paleontology, not medicine. But I can't exactly go out on a dig site and work if I'm having fainting spells due to physical activity that are worsened by exposure to heat.
I'm just so frustrated and tired. I have specialist appointments at least 2x monthly, see a therapist at least once a week, see my PCP twice a week, Im supposed to be in physical therapy 3x a week but I just don't have time. And on top of that, I end up at urgent care or the ER about once a month because of stuff that seems like an emergency but gets chalked up to depression or another chronic illness.
For example, sometimes I get horrible abdominal pain near my appendix. So of course, ER is the correct option. I only recently learned that it's probably linked to my endometriosis, but I also can't chance it, especially after the shit with my gallbladder.
I'm progressing towards EMDR therapy with my therapist who is honestly amazing. But, I'm just... Tired. It's a full time job just to manage my health.