Feeling Trapped: Coping with Agoraphobia and Social Isolation

What do you do when it feels like your Agoraphobia has won? The pandemic hit me like a bus. The state of the world health wise and also politically terrifies me so much it’s hard to go outside. I no longer speak to mutuals I know in person because I’m afraid of being hurt by them. I’m afraid that my DID wont be accepted by them, a tough disorder to work around unfortunately. I don’t go to work, I dont have work friends because I draw on commission. We moved to the country to try and help my social anxiety, but my mum moved us out so far it takes at least an hour to go to any family’s house, and I can no longer see my therapist in person because the drive is too far. We zoom sometimes. I only have 1 in person friend who I cant see often because he’s very immunocompromised. So most of my socialising has been online. Recently people on social media have been so angry and so violent and so harassing about things, I stopped using it. And now I have no where to socialise. It’s just me, and 5 friends in a tiny little discord server. When they aren’t online, I have no one to talk to. The idea of going to a school or getting an outside job, both because of pandemic AND because of the people there is so terrifying I’ve put it off for 2 years now. I used to get severely bullied for everything when I was in school and I just don’t think I can handle it again. I really want to do all online school but, I’d still be socially isolated. I don’t know, things are just really daunting right now. I feel like my fear has frozen me in limbo and it makes me a burden on the people I do have in my life. I just want to know if there’s any hope of getting better. And if so, what’s the first step?