Struggling with Depression

It’s crazy cause I feel so dead, and yet I still want to not be alive. But I’m mainly suffer with suicidal ideation. I can stop myself from doing something thankfully.

Thank you. Yes I know shaming myself is worse. I’m trying to fight it with things I like about myself. And yes, I do. However, I can barely get appointments. They’re usually a month or two apart. And they won’t give me any more.

I’m sorry you’re going through this too. I am the same. I would not eat and just sleep all the time if I could. But my dreams love to attack me and I dream vividly every single night haha

thank you. That means a lot!❤️

I started getting worse when I was in a weird relationship last year. And it continued on. Then I started being around family and I’m trans and they don’t accept me at all, so that added onto it. Recently I developed a major crush on this girl. I thought she liked me too, cause our vibe is crazy. It still is. But she started talking about how she’s talking to this dude now. My heart sunk, and I went back into my slump. Only was happyish again for a short time. For me depression comes in waves. Back and forth. It’s either bad but manageable or so bad I can’t manage.