Struggling with Chronic Pain and Medication

I’m in so much pain. I just got on new meds but they haven’t done a thing yet. I need to be on stronger painkillers because I can’t live like this but my parents are against me going on anything that might actually help because of the addiction risk. I don’t care about that risk anymore. I am so suicidal from my constant pain and lack of quality of life. I feel so isolated and miserable and I just want my old life back but I’ll never have that back. I can’t properly express the level of grief. if I had known the suffering I would experience, maybe I would’ve killed myself so I wouldn’t have to go through this. I wish I had.