Struggling with Chronic Pain and Medical Professionals

Hi everyone, I don't always see when you reply, sorry, do appreciate your good energy. I've been not ok, weaning myself off the fiorcet. Leaving some to make it through part of the holidays. Kept hoping there would be mercy from my Dr. or another professional. Instead all they offer is spine injections and I'd rather croak, then take that. I tried drinking whiskey, which I'm not a drinker. Even that helps a little but can't drink that much. Was reading about a pain clinic in Pittsburgh,and the Dr plead guilty to pushing those injections on his patients and charging for some he never gave. It's the same here in Mississippi, the same sick game. The CDC now says people shouldn't be in so much pain,and some chronic sufferers should be kept on some opioid. It could take years for Doctors to heed that. So It's been a let down of a week. I started seeing a therapist,told me to move to Thailand or order through the mail Ultram etc. Crazy talk,my sister was pissed she said that. I wouldn't trust that,and God only knows what poison like fentanyl could be in it. I'm cancelling my appointment. So prayers or good vibes 😻 please. I totally understand what it is for y'all. Be well