My heart is broken for you and your firehouse family! I am deeply sorry for your losses. 😪 May you find some comfort in happy memories of your loved ones. My thoughts and prayers are with you. 🙏❤️🙏

I know what you mean my dad died out of no where from a heart attack and a couple years before that I lost my Aunt who was like a mother to me, my papaw and then my Nana all in 1 year it devastated me!! But in order to allow myself to not dwell and stay depressed about it I always tell myself that theirs always a reason for it cause after my Aunt died her son was still in school but after he graduated and started his own life my Uncle (his dad and my aunts husband) passed away I feel like he finished what he needed to do for his son... but listen there is always a reason for everything you may never know the reason for it but think of it this way you may not be able to see or talk to them but they ain't in pain anymore or have to deal with this life we're in anymore but they are always around and watching making sure we're ok. I had a near death experience recently and I swear my dad was there to save me I landed on my head on a rock from about 10 feet up but didn't have a knot on my head and luckily didn't really have a concussion either but I know he was there to keep me safe.... I hope this helps you in some way or another