Seeking Advice for Dealing with BPD and Finding the Right Therapist

Going against your brains way of protecting you is deeply difficult. Writing down what you WANT yourself to be more like (ie. Truthful to therapist, not giving into high alert emotions quickly) and reflecting on it often helps ALOT. all your emotions and feelings are real but you OVER TIME can shift them to serve you better. Much luck.

Hey! I don't know how much advice I have but I can definitely relate. I'm in the same boat with the therapist on the phone thing. I am not a fan, but I'm not sure what else to do. I'd say do it if it's your only option, but it's honestly just been pointless and frustrating in my case. I bought a CBT workbook online to help myself get through until I can find something more helpful. I haven't gotten far but it's interesting and does make you reflect and better understand your triggers. With the lying thing... obviously it's more effective to be truthful, but it's hard!! I know i have a hard time showing vulnerability or sticking up for myself. That's another reason I don't like the phone calls. I will be rolling my eyes and getting super angry but then my voice comes out sounding like a sweet, customer service lady. It really is a long, exhausting road. I hope you'll be able to find something that works for you pal.