talk to your doctor, tell them your concerns & ask that they refer you to their Social Work Dept. who will help you find a therapist & psychiatrist. Borderline & Bipolar are extremely similar but they have 1 factor that's different: Bordline is developed due to your environment & Bipolar is genetic, so keep that in mind as well! Be adimant that your PCP refer you to Social work & be adimant that Social Work helps you find a therapist who takes your insurance. Don't go in guns-blazing but definitely keep your guard up & advocate for yourself.

I agree with everything else that was said! While getting a diagnosis can be very validating/relieving, BPD is still very stigmatized and some health care providers may not treat it with the care it deserves. If you do get a diagnosis, prioritize finding an accepting (medically correct) therapist/other provider