What Does Bipolar Psychosis Feel Like?

Psychosis for me has lasted a month or more. It’s a gradual ramp up of synchronicities, intense crying, incredible delight in the mundane, deep connections with everyone I meet, creative output, intellectual prowess and then irritability with the stupidity of others, conflicts for calling them out or from me being erratic in my speech and actions, police showing up, arrests or 5150s, abuse in the hands of psych ward orderlies and then waking up to the horror of what has transpired. It’s gotten to where I doubt myself if I feel gregarious or if I wake up early feeling energized. I’m hypervigilant constantly scan for symptoms to avoid a repeat of the last episode. I suspect it stems from childhood trauma and not chemical imbalances which has proven to be false. I need therapy, good nutrition, exercise, meaningful work and a loving community. Forcing zombifying chemicals into my body then leaving me to be unhoused and unsupported has only left me more vulnerable to more episodes. Thank God for a relative who recently took me in.

I take medicine for mine. Mine was hearing and seeing things especially at night

Okay, now I know what it's like. It feel like I AM unstable. Like my entire being is unstablized and I am not in sync with something stable. Pretty whacktastic. Just had an episode of psychosis tonight. I felt so depressed and in a moment I was trying on clothing and makeup to ground myself.

Most of the time I know I'm hallucinating but sometimes I don't. I also will get agitated and sometimes aggro about nothing

Flashed of anger, crying and isolation

It feels like being blackout drunk, no control over yourself, and then you wake up the next day and have to fix all the mistakes you made. Not to mention the holes in my memory, and the fact that I'm never sure if anything is real.

Scary long nightmare .. I have scary delusions and hallucinations and I’m always having a panic attack when they take my ad I’ve been on 20 years and give me antipsychotics.. I react bad. I remember everyone and everything.

The mild psychosis is worse than the major. I just have vision quests through these experiences. I’m going to write it all down in a book. It’s like I’m riding a wave I can’t crest. Can be addictive and ennobling. Others views of the experience is the REAL problem. I’m on lithium now. It’s causing me to process all my emotions. It’s a beautiful kind of horrific, to look out your window realizing you’re not dead.

I'm actually not entirely sure myself what that would entail~