Struggling with Anxiety and Depression at Work

100,000+e21% I have an extreme and intense fear of being mistreated for having a panic attack at work again, I've had three jobs over the course of 2 years totaling 4 months. At each job I would go into work on edge afraid I would have a panic attack and when I got off work I would enjoy myself or feel relieved I would just dread going back. I would continue working when I experienced suicidal thoughts but I quit all three jobs because of an attempt. I haven't told anyone. I'm still terrified of even talking about it but I live alone I have no income, not even disability, I'm only 24, but I haven't had a job in over 18 months and I don't plan on going back to work. Apply for SSI was draining so I stopped trying. I'm completely alone in life because everyone just wants to believe that I'm lazy and I'm just don't see a reason to fight with them to try to convince them otherwise. I tried not to be alone I told my therapist I can't work and that I'm finding it hard to connect with people because I don't leave my apartment. She told me I after months of any other issue being give a bandaid solution, something like "that's no fun" she give me an ultimatum "you can get a job or I don't know what to tell you" I did try to be open with her so if she asked why I didn't work I would have told her, and I can't remember if I did tell her, but regardless what I heard was, except being alone, or kill yourself, I understand that's not what she meant but it's what I heard from the person whose job it is to help my declining mental health, I don't expect miracles but did she have to make it worse with and ultimatum. Of get a job which she knew I did not want to do or be alone when I was attempting to be proactive in making connections. At least the annoying and constant bandaid replies didn't cause me to have several panic attacks before and after each appointment until I finally just quit.

Definitely! It's just so hard to keep up with everything. I lose motivation easily, or I get overwhelmed and shut down...

I'm sorry I never responded to any of you. Thank you so much for your reply and I hope you're all doing well and have a wonderful holiday season! ❤️

My anxiety attacks made it impossible for me to get through a shift or rest at home at my last job. I haven't had one since (2019)

I have anxiety and have trouble being in a big crowd and my depression is bad as well

My anxiety and depression took over I couldn't stand to stay at work

I know all to well I lost 3 jobs that way

Literally just today I had a panic attack due to someone mentioning something to me.

Definitely. I've lost 2 jobs out of 3. Because of anxiety. & 1 out of three from depression. I try so hard & it doesn't seem to work.

Definitely I have never kept a job longer than a year until now it's been 1 year and 1 month since I started with my county job maybe the medication is helping

Yes indeed, anxiety and depression, and I've had about 6 jobs in the past 2 years...

I have the exact same issue. I jump from job to job in last 2 years. Once something happens in my world, I lose my focus and drive. I choose to run away from conflict or uncomfortable situations. Not able to take criticism or help from others at work as I look at myself as a failure. 😥

Oh yes!!! I went back to medical school and I am having the worst time finding motivation and focus. Whenever I do sit down to do it, I start overthinking everything and get overwhelmed and my anxiety gets worse 😵🙄😑

Absofuckinglutely. I'm worried about my future and being able to maintain a steady income. 😥