(Literally just posted in this topic omfg, I’m sorry;;) but do any of you find that you can sometimes, if rarely, have “good” days? Whatever that may mean for you I’d love to know, but for me I consider it being a little bit ok with deviating from a specific plan of restriction and schedule. I don’t feel proud of it at all, but on “good” days I won’t lay in misery crying over it and losing my absolute mind, my mental punishment won’t feel as strong. However…I still find myself needing to compensate for these “good” days hence why I use quotes cause it’s like even though I let myself eat outside a specific plan or eat at all, it’s not complete freedom since I still feel wrong for it after awhile. Anyways though this was much longer than intended, I just wanted to know if anyone has felt a similar way or have had any times they considered “good” in some way but not exactly recovered? I can feel quite invalid for it or like a faker because of these times and how stereotypical Anorexia experiences consistently are represented