Am I Asexual? Confused About My Sexual Identity

@Livingasazebra like I said there are a ton of reasons, and not everyone really has one. I'm a firm believer that everything in human behavior has some kind of cause but I also believe that some people just won't or can't figure out what the cause is, and for some people that's fine and they go on just knowing what they experience but not why and can make that functional and comfortable. If you aren't one of those people who are comfortable with that though, I would recommend doing some exploration of your thoughts and feelings surrounding the topic as well as looking into the more nuanced ace spectrum labels and how/if any of your preexisting conditions have a connection with sex repulsion. I would suggest following up with any that do have a connection by asking others with the same condition(s) about their experiences and seeing if anything connects with your experiences.

It might be helpful to you to look into some of the acespec's more nuanced labels. I am "asexual" because that's a term people (somewhat) understand, but I actually identify as anegosexual - I experience sexual arousal from viewing/imagining other people having sex, but the idea of me myself actually being physically intimate with somebody else is a major turn off. Possibly related to / complicated by gender dysphoria and systemic fragmentation. It's still not a perfect label for me, but for now it feels pretty damn comfy, so I'm using it. Also, just remember that (as has been said by Mcmeadow) sexuality is a spectrum, which is also true of an individual's experience of sexuality over time: you may find that a term you have previously identified with doesn't feel right anymore, or that your sexuality completely changes. This doesn't mean that you were "faking it" or "wrong" before, just that things have changed now. It's kind of like fashion, in that sense. You wear whatever (label/term that) is most comfortable and expresses you the most accurately at the time, and as you grow and develop, you may find that it changes. Doesn't mean it was "just a phase", just that it was real and true at that point of your life, and may not be at another point. Hope this is helpful in some way. Best of luck, and remember: regardless of how you define your sexuality, if you don't want to do a particular sexual thing, you do not have to.

I think the most important thing to remember is that, like most things, sexuality is a spectrum. You could for sure consider yourself on the spectrum of asexuality if that's what you feel most comfortable with and if that's what you would like to label yourself. It the label fits, wear it. ❤️ But if you so choose you can also just not have a label for the way you feel and just go with the "that's just how I am" attitude. It's up to the individual, everyone is different. 🤗