Looking for advice on taking Abilify for bipolar disorder

I was on abilify for like 2 yearscaused tardive dyskinesia at higher dose, now i had to go back to it and I'm fine at lower dose. It's the only antipsychotic that doesn't turn me into a zombie.

I was initially put on ability. I developed A movement disorder due to the high dose. I think it was 15mg. So long ago. Due to the movements I took myself off. Went thru a lot nausea withdrawal on this med. wasn’t the right one for me at any dose. I’m on Geodon now. Only one that seemed to keep me stable.

Was on haldol... The mood swings went away (kinda) but the demons I see did not . Been on Abilify for 2 months now and no demons ! 🥳 I'm afraid to come off of it . I'm on the max dose . I take Zoloft and lymcital to . I use to take haldol lymcital abilify Wellbutrin Zoloft depakote. But where I am trying to get pregnant they took me off depakote and haldol . I stopped Wellbutrin cause it was making me manic . Now update since I haven't been on haldol and depakote I am depressed and lost feelings and anxiety and I have paranoia and out of it when I use Delta 8 pens . . I also use hydroxyzine and quetiapine for sleep .