Failed First Day Jitters

This looks like compulsive behavior. I suffer from this when I get hooked on video games and TV. Where I can’t stop. I have things I have to do but don’t no matter the consequences. I try and limit my access to video games as much as I can. I feel like I need to be a horse with blinders on. Where I have no choice but to go forward. Medication has helped me in my past with this but not all the time. It’s a gamble. I think cognitive behavioral therapy my be best. Self talk like. If I don’t go I will be fired if I go the worst thing that could happen is they don’t like they way I look and fire me anyway. The “what do I have to loose” questioning. For me I always try and tell myself that I can play games later. I am not exactly sure what you were feeling when you couldn’t make yourself go. I use to dabble in hypnosis and it was easy to induce catalepsy in people. Telling them they can’t do things no matter how hard they tried then telling them to try as hard and they could to watch them fail. Really strange stuff. So our brains can easily override are desires. Hell maybe try hypnosis. If it works then it works. That’s all I got for now.

Try to let this moment go. I work in recruiting and can tell you that things like this happen all the time. The next interviewer doesn’t know you and you are the master of your first impression. Plus, whoever is interviewing you has their own self doubts and anxieties. Keep moving forward 🙌