Struggling with Work Stress and Depression

I can't get myself to go back into work. I am just super stressed, it isn't a huge problem if I get fired, which is the mentality I have been holding of it's okay to keep skipping since I don't care about the consequences. But now I'm super stressed over it, I still need a job but this one just doesn't seem to be working out. I feel bad cuz I've only been working there for like 2 weeks but it already has so many problems. (manager not communicating with me, weird hours, etc.) It's just overall a job I don't like and I'm sick of pretending to be happy while I'm there. I haven't gone in since last week, but technically I've only missed 3 days so far. What's worse I think my manager left a voicemail of being concerned about me cuz he said even though he doesn't know me too well I don't seem like the person to miss on work. Which is true, I'm a good worker and I'm always super early. I can't bring myself to tell him that it's because of my depression and I just don't know what to do anymore. And I kinda just shut down, I've done this before, I will probably end up not telling them anything, no updates, no attempts at excuses, just dropping off the earth at that point to them. I don't want to do this but I don't think I'm just going to suddenly get up and go to work again anytime soon.