Are you going for treatment? You don't have to deal with depression alone. There are many people who can help you with this. From your family and friends who love you and care about you to professionals like psychologists or psychiatrists. Today, after years of treatment and balance, I can say that it's a shame that I didn't start taking care of myself earlier and let it take over my life instead of doing the opposite. I suggest not wasting time and start acting on the issue.