Struggling with School and Adulting

I’m having a hard week. Well year. I decided to enroll in school this semester because I didn’t want to left doing nothing, being stuck with my thoughts. I have a therapist but she’s not help. I just get angry tell people my problems because it’s a waste of time because they won’t have a solution. When I volunteer to share what’s going on with me— that’s different. Because I’m not expecting you to have the solution to my problem. I’m sharing to get it off my mind. But if you ask me how I’m doing an you really want to know, you better have a solution for me otherwise don’t waste my time. That’s just how I feel. I’ll share if I want you to know. Anyway… I have A’s in all my classes but I still want to drop out. I hate forcing myself to go to school 5 days a week and studying for exams every 2 weeks when I really couldn’t give a shit about none of it. I fear I’d be making a mistake doing that because we’re already halfway through and I already payed for the tuition … it’s going to show up on my transcript either way… It’s just such a waste to drop out not but stay in it is torture. I don’t even want to adult. I don’t want manage bills, a home, taxes, and whatever else comes with adulting. I don’t want life. Look at everyone else around me and they’re doing it. And I just don’t see it for me. I think it’ll be easier for me if I died. And I’m trying to keep in mind my blessings and that this is temporary but even if I didn’t feel the way I feel right now, I still don’t want those responsibilities. I fear without school, I won’t get a good paying job to support myself. What will I succumb to? All I think about is the best solution to kill myself.