Struggling with Relapse and Depression

It helped me to remind myself, just because I relapsed doesn't mean I have failed. I can always try my best and work on finding an alternative that works for me. Drawing on myself in red pen helped, or holding ice. School was a huge stressor, there's so many expectations put on you. But I believe in you. Just take it a little bit at a time and you'll be alright.

27 days is incredible! Don't overlook that amazing accomplishment! Take it as a sign that it is possible and that if you can do that once, you can do it again or even better. I'm proud of you!! Have you ever tried journaling? It's a great way to write out your feelings and situations every day with yourself. Whenever I feel like self harming, usually it's because I can't get my feelings out or vent them to anyone. You could even journal on a word document for example and make it password-protected. If you prefer writing and protection, maybe a Rocketbook and wiping your writing away after you're done saving it digitally (if desired). Something terrible happened in my life and I finally started journaling a month ago. My spouse, too. It helps me talk about what is bothering me instead of falling into unhealthy coping mechanisms. My psychologist said that journaling may sound ridiculous while you are in those moments, so before those moments, promise yourself to try at least three times. That could be with other healthy hobbies like crochet, knitting, walking, etc. I know that I'm just an internet stranger, but I hope you know that someone out there is cheering you on. :) Whatever makes you happy that is healthy, I hope for the best for you! Sorry if everything I said was unhelpful. I also had a hard time with school, but I don't know if I have much advice. It's really unfortunate that school systems aren't for everyone and it's not fair to you at all.