I relapsed and feel stuck; I been clean for 6 years, with only small breakthroughs during some bad times but this was my first real relapse. I feel terrible but it made me feel better, calmer.. I feel like I’m loosing myself a bit and hopefully tomorrow I can get an emergency appointment at the school for counseling but even that’s scary because they don’t know me well and I’m afraid of their reaction.. idk what to do . I just want to see my regular treatment team