Its hard to because of how people may judge. Sometimes it's easier to talk to a complete stranger about your problems

I get it. I've definitely gone through periods where it feels like I should just run away from everything. I've also gone through a similar isolation situation. Sometimes I find it helpful to find a specific task I'm really good at, in my case caring for my dog, and I pour my time into that. For me this helps to refocus myself into something rewarding as well as to redirect my thoughts on to why my depression thoughts aren't accurate. For example; I take my dog to his favorite park, then I'm reminded that I love this park as much as him and removing his access by running away would be mean. Or sitting outside and telling him about my day can redirect my thoughts from I'm alone to I have his company always. I'm not sure this will help for you but I find that it helps me and thought it could be a solid place to get ideas on how to develop your own redirection technique!

I would suggest finding a support group. It doesn't necessarily have to be an in person one or one dedicated to dealing with depression, it can even be a small group of friends that you just get together once or twice a week to do something you all enjoy. Those little moments of companionship can help to ease the moments in between therapy visits. Be patient with yourself, finding a group you can trust may take a while and that's okay. You're online friends, like us, will always be willing to chat with you!

Idk this is struggle because I keep myself going with the thought of leaving everything and moving to a pretty little house on the beach and getting away from the noise and the drama and I didn’t know that had a term until now but I don’t think it’s a bad thing to want that peace and to want to live for yourself I think society teaches us that we should live a certain way and when you don’t wanna live that way there’s something wrong with you Ik that depression is technically a chemical imbalance but I also think a lot of it especially in this generation is a lot of waking up to the fact we don’t wanna slave away at jobs in order to survive we want to live don’t feel guilty for wanting that but also at the same time maybe try to not let it consume you find things where u are that you love and focus on those things.

i'm sorry you feel stuck and that you can't open up to the people around you. that's the worst feeling, self-isolation. i'm in the same place, too... but, hey, you deserve to be heard, so please don't feel like you can't share what you're going through. you're just as much worth the time to listen to and be present with as anyone else. i promise. be kind to yourself, don't rush yourself. your people are out there. in the meantime, i can only offer so much through a screen, but if you wanna chat, please feel free to. sending hugs ♡

I kinda have this thought process too and i’m working through it but it helped me to say to people like “i’m not sure why i feel this way but I just do even though etc is going great” or something so I didn’t feel like they thought i was ungrateful or like making something of nothing. That definitely isn’t needed just helped me feel comfortable in a way and less likely to be judged