Struggling with Chronic Pain as a Mom

I feel this too, constant guilt. My kid says I'm doing great though, and she's a teenager so I'm gunna take that as a massive compliment!!!!

I feel this in my soul. My 4 year old has screamed "I hate you. I wish I had a mommy who wasn't sick" and it broke my heart. But the truth is, we are still doing our best despite our limitations, trying our hardest for our kids. And one day they'll understand that. I asked him later that day if he meant what he said or if he was just upset. He was just upset. So we talked about his feelings and snuggled. He was feeling like mom gets all the attention because of my medical problems. So we arranged scheduled daddy son park time/play place time at least 5 days a week for an hour or more (also good for kiddos ADHD!) And we scheduled family video game time so we could all be doing something fun together. Ive also worked on incorporating more sedate activities with my little guy. Coloring, building blocks, video and board games, reading stories, or just snuggling and binging YouTube kids. I think showing interest and spending quality time in the ways Im able has done leaps and bounds for kiddos well being and that's alleviated much of my guilt. When the guilt monster starts trying to sneak back out, I remind myself that I didn't ask for these problems and its not my fault I'm in pain. Im doing my best. And Im raising a remarkably empathetic child.