Struggling with Anxiety: Seeking Support

hi. new here. idk what I need. just talking I guess. was playing a stupid game and this came up so... June 15th my friends and I suffered from a very unexpected and devastating loss. none of the following is new to me. but the frequency has gone from a few times a year... to several times a day. panic attacks, palpitations, short of breath, separation from reality of myself, others, and the world around me, pins and needles, dizziness... all with visits to the ER and Drs to assure myself nothing is wrong. my heart is fine. my body is fine. I am not. I'm going to get a therapist again tomorrow but... this is the worst I've ever been in my entire life. I, for the first time, have absolute 0 control over my anxiety issues. okay. nice to meet you.