I been through this. I was an alcoholic when I was 18 at 20 I figured I would try an AA meeting. It has helped me. Been sober since 1980. I lost so much things, and people. It will get better if you want it to. Ask for help from your higher over. It works. You can find a sponsor at AA, and u can meet remarkable people. I would suggest an open meeting to start. Sit and listen. Believe me when I say someone is worse off then you or I. Good luck. If u need to talk let me know.

You aren't alone and sending you support. Can you ask for help?

I am kinda like you All I wanted to do is get fucked up. It was causing a lot of problems between me and my wife. So I quit drinking is the best thing I ever done in my life. If I can do it you can do it. So have faith in yourself

Pray and seek God prayer 🙏 works and get some help from a program and get some people around u who don't drink and that want to help u prayer works

Join AA.. or scientology, or some other cult, like Christianity or catholicism, you'll figure it out without the cult trust me

Understandable! I feel like if you were to attend AA meetings, you would meet people just like you that share the same pain. You could make new friends who understand what you’re going through

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