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kieanne

521d

i’ve struggled with social anxiety my whole life. anytime it comes to discussing anything personal for myself or whoever i’m talking to, it’s as if my voice box goes on mute and i can barely force any words out. anyways, i’ve had a crush on my childhood friend forever. he acts like a tough guy, but he’s always the first one to be there whenever someone is upset or hurt. he’s very goofy and and playful like a kid, but i’m like that too so we always bug the younger kids together to get off their phones. he has such a big heart. he dated this one girl for a year and a half. she was mentally and physically abusive towards him and he finally broke up with her a couple months ago. so i want to try and see if he wants to do something together now. i can tell he likes me too. he’s laid his head on my lap while playing on his phone, he’ll grab my hand and compliment my nail polish and my rings and then hold it for awhile, he’ll constantly poke me and come up behind me and swing his arm around my shoulder. and i catch him staring at me all the time and he’ll look away with a soft smile. i want to ask him if he’d wanna go bowling or mini golfing or something. but we’ve NEVER hung out one on one before over the many years we’ve known each other and it makes me have a lot of anxiety. usually when we’re together it’s me, him, his sis (who i usually am hanging out with) and my cousins (who usually hang out around him). so i’ve never been really alone with him. and we rarely ever text but i’ve been texting him every few days sometimes to just start a conversation and slowly get more comfortable. i’m afraid i’ll mess something up. but ik if i don’t do anything then i’ll never get the answer i want. he’s a really good guy. sometimes he’ll go quiet and not answer for awhile cause he usually keeps to himself and his parents get really mad over little things he or his sis does wrong. i just don’t really know how to go about this. i’ve never liked someone so much so i’m constantly overthinking everything i could possibly do wrong. i’m so afraid of messing up.

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    • kieanne

      516d

      @stay thank you. your comment helps me more than you know 💗

    • ina

      516d

      i totally get not knowing what to say when one on one but learning to be comfortable with silence is nice, like just existing together. not all silences have to be awkward. but for talking i like asking questions that can't just be answered with yes or no, or talking about the thing you're doing. the point of conversation is getting to know someone and sharing about yourself, so ask what you want to know and share what you want him to know. if you wanna get past awkward small talk you can say something about yourself that shows you don't care what people think. like i just found out wolverines were a real animal, i thought it was just a superhero, or sometimes i pee outside just to see what prehistoric people felt like. it makes the other person feel like you're not gonna judge them and makes them feel safer to share more personal things. and responses are usually just what it reminds you of, what it makes you feel, or a similar situation you had. focus on listening to the conversation instead of what you look or sound like. saying his name, complimenting what he obviously cares about, stuff like that. from what you've described he obviously likes you, i doubt he's gonna react negatively in any way. i've found worrying won't fix anything, you just overthink for hours and in the end the problem isn't even solved and you feel worse. staying in the present helps a lot. instead of worrying ab the future i like asking what i can do about it right now

    • royalty

      516d

      When you said that sometimes you can't seem to be able to speak because of anxiety, I have the same issue. That's called selective mutism and it's awful. Mine is caused by autism and PANDAS.

      • kieanne

        516d

        @royalty i’ve never understood what causes that but it might be my autism too then :/ have you found anything to help you speak freely? i find that texting and writing is my way of speaking freely. that’s why i write so much because my voice is usually silent. but has anything helped you actually speak face to face with someone yet? 💗

        • royalty

          516d

          @kieanne I do text and write but I'm also learning sign language and that helps me communicate a bit better also.

    • Captain_Honey

      516d

      It sounds like you're just going to have to take the leap. It'll be scary of course but in my experience it feels amazing once you've done it. It's like a weight comes off your shoulders. Plus you can always let him know that your nervous before you start. Mostly people will then help you remain calm as you talk. Best of luck. You've got this!

      • kieanne

        516d

        @Captain_Honey that’s a smart idea to mention i’m nervous. thank you for mentioning that. will definitely help! 💕

    • stay

      521d

      I've had that fear of messing things up and sometimes I feel like I have. I didn't have as close a friendship as you. From my experience it's just better to tell them. The sooner the better. I've always hurt myself more than they have. The longer you keep your feelings the more likely you are to get hurt if they reject you. Considering what you mentioned, it's very likely he likes you too. I know it's scary. It's been scary every time I've done it. It's better to just do it.

      • kieanne

        516d

        @stay thank you. your comment helps me more than you know 💗

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