OCD and CVS: Can't Throw Up Certain Things

Hey new to this app but wanted to share my story. I’ve always been afraid of throwing up, other people throwing up, the thought, the smell, etc. this started when I was very young and they gave me anxiety medication for it. For 15 years I was pretty unbothered by puke, that said I was never really around it or I would simply distance myself from it. I also never threw up in those 15 years myself so I kind of convinced myself it wasn’t anything I’d have to worry about anymore. TW: 2 months ago I threw up for the first time in 15 years I remember feeling wayyy better after it happened and almost proud of myself for getting through it. But The next week I had to quit my job because I was getting so anxious about throwing up at work to the point where I’d actually feel sick (viscous cycle when your fear of getting sick makes you actually feel sick). I would try to remember what I did that day that could have “caused” the incident like what I wore that day, where I went, etc. so I could avoid those things in the future to feel more in control. I knew time was the only thing that could help me to distance myself from the incident until I got sick again only 2 months later! After not throwing up for 15 years to doing it twice within a 2 month period?! My worries are now magnified and I fear how it will affect my life. Will I be able to work again? I’ve been dropping weight because I’m afraid of eating now, will that go away in time? I fear being in public and not being able to make it to the bathroom. Any advice/ can any of you guys relate to this?