Missing the People Who Weren't Really My Friends

it sucks thinking back to when i had people in my life. although i wasnt really their friend and they really werent mind. i feel bad when i miss it. they were still people in my life and thats why they matter. i used to talk to them i used to walk with them and now i dont see them at all. or ever again. thats hurts to think about. but they werent my genuine friends. but they werent my genuine friends. they didnt emotionally support me like true friends. its suckssss. i like the support this app gives me and i can be 100% honest. i miss it. being around people all the time. i know i can get that by going back to school. what about today? what about right now? who am i talking to how am i emotionally connecting i ask myself. its me, my mom, my sister, and my dad. and