The Complicated Feelings of Mental Health Stigma in Media

TW: Bad media portrayals of mental health, experiences with ableism/discrimination, Depression?, I feel that the media around sanity (or specifically when someone is lacking in perceived sanity) has deeply affected how I feel about my own mental health. Especially when Dissociative Identity Disorder is so deeply stigmatized and growing up watching Content from Total Drama to Gotham to American Horror Story. All of these shows I deeply loved and were obsessed with at different times. Now the feelings are complicated (for a lot more than just poor portrayals of mental health) to say the least. Like I want to have humor behind it but when so many people take the well intentioned humor about my own experiences as an excuse to demonize it's hard to want to do that. This is also not to say that I have experienced this personally with DID by the time I found out I was already pretty isolated (that and I haven't felt comfortable with joking online for clear reasons) so it's not the specific experience but it's also not the first Condition I was diagnosed with by a long shot and when humor about my experience is so easily warped into mocking or deprecating of the whole community it's just frustrated me deeply and makes humor around it all feel like eggshells when I just wanna cope. Not to be dehumanized further for things about myself I didn't ask to have and cannot change.