Feeling Guilty for Taking a Mental Health Day

You do what’s best for you! Jobs don’t give a shit about you. That’s why you gotta do what you gotta do for your own health!!

I have a lot of Depersonalization and Derealization episodes and I get having to compromise with yourself and dealing with the guilt of other people picking up your slack even when you are at work. You are absolutely valid in your experience and you are very strong for dealing with it day to day. This is a very real struggle and it’s hard. It is bad somedays, and there is no way to sugarcoat that. It’s okay to take time for you because you matter. You shouldn’t put yourself over a job. Your mental health matters more than forcing yourself in when you are having a severe episode of dissociation. I will say, you are lucky to have employers that understand because most don’t care about mental health like you were saying and that’s a shame. It sounds like your boss cares about your mental well being and really understands you are having a rough time. They want you to take the time you need to heal and grow and better yourself, because sometimes you need to take time alone to do that instead of working a job and working on yourself somedays. You aren’t faking or lying about your experiences to get out of work, if you were, you definitely wouldn’t be reacting this way and hurt by your dissociation. I hope this helps and you can heal from all of this. It’s a very difficult thing to go through and you are very strong for handling it at all.