I’m so sorry to that you feel that way. It may sounds like a cliche, but from my experience - the darkest hour of the night is the one before the dawn. Good times will calm, you just need to trust yourself. Don’t be ashamed to ask for help.

It sounds to me like you're really craving human connection. That's good and natural, and I hope you take it as a sign of hope for yourself. The other good part of your post is that you highlighted some steps to work on yourself in ways that can get you more significant human interaction. For example, if you think you're ugly, make daily, weekly monthly goals to work on that. I've recently started going to the gym to like my body more and feel better. And if you struggle to find people that share your humor maybe look for people that enjoy the same shows or comedians you do. One way to do this is by getting out to social groups and practicing talking to people at them. Good luck and I hope this helps