Heartbreak and Anguish: My Failed Attempt to Rent a House

i broke today. was trying to rent the house up the street. the guy told me to put the application in the mail box Wednesday so he would get it yesterday. I called to see if he got it and he said he rented it already. I hung up and jumped out of my body. all I heard was screaming. it was me. I screamed and wept like a dying animal. I didn't feel anything else but anguish. my heart shattered to a million pieces.