what meds are helping you if you don’t mind me asking? I’m on one that I think helps a little but the side effects are insane. also i’m relatively stable ish in normal life at the moment, but unfortunately my boyfriend of 5 years is getting more and more abusive (physically and mentally) and I think he’s trying to make me think i’m going crazy because he just keeps telling me it’s not that bad and he wouldn’t “actually” hurt me. even tho he tells me he’s gonna kill me like 3 times a week. i feel like im losing my mind but only in this aspect, and for some reason it’s really messing w me even tho realistically I’m pretty sure what he is doing is wrong. but the thought that maybe I am losing it and he’s right about everything is eating away at me every second of every day. i just don’t get it and wanna see the good in him so bad lol i keep telling myself he like doesn’t mean it or something or he will get better but i know it’s not true. my mom was a diagnosed narcissist/ personality disorders and he is exactly like her. it makes me so sad. i’m just second guessing everything. one minute I know I need to leave him, and the next he’s convincing me that i’m insane. it’s been like this for 2 years. i’m stuck