For the last few days I have been a mess. My stomach has been hurting all the time and eating and not eating makes it worse. When im around other people I can mask it but when it goes to just me or just me and my mom Im back to pain & being sad. I don’t have much of a will to “live” but im not trying to harm myself. So im stuck in this horrible middle where I want to die, but also not wanting to harm myself and just have the world leave me alone. There’s too much going on and I haven’t left my bedroom today much and hardly had an appetite to eat. I just watch tv and cry all day. I have homework due tomorrow that I do not want to do and haven’t started, have to go to school tomorrow, my phone is not working correctly and everyone seems to have life put together except for me. Waking up is too much for me and id like a year when I dont have to do or talk to people. Im aware I need help but going back to professionals just make me feel awful. Sorry for being super depressing but I just want to stop crying ☹️. I have a great boyfriend but he’s practically got his whole life set up and then there’s me who is behind. I feel like I cant keep up with him or anyone and im so tired.
Ik how ya feel. For a long time in my life I was so depressed I sounded just like you. Yet no matter how hard I put a smile on my face I still get depressed. All I do is, I try to find a hobby. Something to keep my mind off of things. That's what I do daily and without those distractions, I fall back into that endless cycle. You also need professional help fs, because if you don't. I'm afraid you would do something awful one day. I almost did, but it's good I'm still alive. I hope you find happiness again, or at least some happiness
my hobby is honestly sleeping and watching tv. But my problem with it is that I still have school and stuff and I spend too much time invested in my shows because its an escape for me. Also, I have attempted 3 times in a span of 6 years but I was never able to go through with it. Asking for help is so hard without someone trying to put me in an institution.
I understand you're fears, but it's important that you get better. I will be praying for ya. Also tbh I would be dead if it wasn't for my faith. So that's a huge help
Depression is hard you're not all those bad feelings, depression puts those bad thought in your head try saying something positive when you're having bad thoughts even if you don't believe it right now it can help with the negative self talk. No one has it all together in their 20s unless it's handed to you. You have to do your best doing the things you're not wanting to do can give you a bit of a mood lift give yourself positives every time you get something completed. Good luck you can do it. I think if you find it hard to talk to a therapist find a friend or mentor to talk to.
it is but sometimes I focus best when in a crunch for time. Depression sucks hard to focus sometimes positive self talk helps bring up your mood a little
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For the last few days I have been a mess. My stomach has been hurting all the time and eating and not eating makes it worse. When im around other people I can mask it but when it goes to just me or just me and my mom Im back to pain & being sad. I don’t have much of a will to “live” but im not trying to harm myself. So im stuck in this horrible middle where I want to die, but also not wanting to harm myself and just have the world leave me alone. There’s too much going on and I haven’t left my bedroom today much and hardly had an appetite to eat. I just watch tv and cry all day. I have homework due tomorrow that I do not want to do and haven’t started, have to go to school tomorrow, my phone is not working correctly and everyone seems to have life put together except for me. Waking up is too much for me and id like a year when I dont have to do or talk to people. Im aware I need help but going back to professionals just make me feel awful. Sorry for being super depressing but I just want to stop crying ☹️. I have a great boyfriend but he’s practically got his whole life set up and then there’s me who is behind. I feel like I cant keep up with him or anyone and im so tired.
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