Don't worry, I feel you. I'm constantly bothering my parents or asking questions about things, they reply with making me feel worthless or annoying, but my parents are mean so if anybody is mean bc you want help or you're confused don't give them a second thought okay :). Also I get confused so much, just take time to collect your thoughts or even ask a friend or somebody for advice, find a supportive group of friends, or go to your partner(they love you for a reason!) Alot of stuff you're feeling and going through are things alot of others go through too! Remember that you're not alone with this

no man is an island

If I get confused I ask my Mom to help me that's why my mom makes all my doctors appointments 😂☺️