(If you already know about any of these resources, please disregard) If you're open to the idea and have access to therapy, internal family systems therapy and dbt are really helpful when it comes to these kinds of things. IFS can help you sort out a lot of internal turmoil etc and dbt can give you processing skills and coping mechanisms needed to get through. Most importantly, do your best to remember that we're all together here in our different states of mental illnesses. You weren't the first and you won't be the last to have this diagnosis, and the more we share our experiences and receive help, the better prepared mental health professionals will be to help us and others. Kinda wordy, sorry. Just know you aren't alone

I understand the loneliness, I just want you to know there's no reason for you to be so hard on yourself. You deserve to feel loved and appreciated as much as anyone and I think it starts by loving and forgiving yourself. Sending love and hope 🙏🏽❤️