Should I Stay or Should I Go?

Get out while you can. Make a plan and go. I can tell you from personal experience... It doesn't get better. Only worse. This sounds extremely toxic and manipulative. Try reaching out to a local shelter for resources. There's help out there. Sending you hopes for all the strength you need to make the decision that is best you you and your well being.

It's one thing if they fuck up and than work on themselves and change, but if it's just a continuous cycle and that you know for a fact is going to happen again, than save yourself. You deserve better

this does not sound like a healthy relationship anymore at all and the best thing would be for you to end it, but i dont want you to go into it unprepared. do you have another place you can stay? are you able to financially support yourself, or is there someone who's willing to help you? my best advice is to not be physically with him if and when you do end it, especially if you think he's a danger to you. if you have anybody irl who can help you in any way, i really strongly recommend that you reach out to them and ask for help. it doesnt make you weak, i promise. my mom (and us kids) finally got away from my father when i was about 15. it was hard emotionally and financially for a while, but it was the best decision she could have made for us. leaving is so scary because everything seems really uncertain, but facing that temporary uncertainty is better in the long run than staying with someone whos making you feel like this. youre always welcome to message me if you need to talk. i wish you the best of luck and hope things get better for you soon. you dont deserve to be treated like that.

Oh honey. You and I are both on the same boat. May we get the strength to move from toxicity and manipulation