Struggling with Depression and Medication

You're on a pretty low dose of bupropion, talking to your doctor about increasing it might be helpful. I've been hospitalized twice this year, once was primarily anxiety and undiagnosed ADHD struggles, the second one was mainly depression. Having my meds adjusted and my antidepressant changed helped me stabilize significantly. After hospitalization I was able to go to residential treatment for 6 weeks and it was incredibly helpful, taught me a lot of useful skills, and set me on the upwards path that I really needed. Now I see a therapist usually once a week, and it's helped me stay in a much better place overall. If you can get residential treatment I strongly recommend it. If not you really do need to go to therapy regularly. A good therapist you connect with can make a huge difference. If you don't have insurance look into sliding scale options. Prioritize your mental health. Find a balance of not expecting too much of yourself and allowing yourself plenty of rest, while not isolating and sleeping all day. What I did for a long while was a lot of just existing in the same room with my husband as we both chilled and did our own thing. I know your husband works different hours than you do, but maybe there's someone else who you could spend time with? Even just cuddling up with your dogs and watching a movie is a good option. Getting outside helps, if you can find the motivation you can take a walk, but even just sitting outside is helpful. Do a hobby you like (or use to like) just for fun and don't worry about the results. I like doing art. Eat enough nutritious food and hydrate, and make sure to eat some food you enjoy and have some tasty drinks. You aren't going to feel better if you don't eat and drink what you need to. I gave up on doing the dishes and cooking complex food and we ate off of paper plates and heated up frozen food. Didn't matter that it's not ideal, because feeding ourselves was enough. Don't bother folding your clothes if you don't have the energy, if your clothes get too wrinkly you can just hang them up in the bathroom while you take a shower and that should help fix them. Be lazy. Don't scrub the dishes beforehand and run the dishwasher twice. There are no rules here, do whatever works. If you're feeling isolated join a group activity, it could be a hobby, it could be group therapy, you could go volunteer somewhere, literally anything, even infrequently is better than nothing. People need to connect with other people. And I know that's a lot of things for someone who doesn't feel like doing anything, so maybe just pick one thing to start out with and work your way up. Today you might just try having a movie night with your dogs, you can watch a familiar movie you don't feel obligated to pay attention to, maybe make some popcorn or have your favorite candy. Tomorrow you might sit outside and watch your dogs play. If you have vacation days you could go on a date to a pumpkin patch with your husband. Little steps turn into bigger steps, and you gradually do start to feel better. Don't let depression take your whole day. Do something, no matter how tiny, even if you don't really want to. And if you aren't able to today, no big deal, try again tomorrow as many times as takes. Ultimately remember that you and your happiness are absolutely worth it, and that you have people who care about you cheering you on, and not because we expect anything from you, just because we're wishing you the best.

My4dogsaremylife.... We have something in common ( I suspect!!) I have 2 dogs ( and They are my life) . My email is rescuedogs4joy@gmail.com...That should tell you something about me😊. My hubby ❤works 3rd shift, I work 1st... We are about 3weeks away from our 25th wedding anniversary.I have 2 stepsons that WE got custody of ( YES!! I RAISED THEM from ages 5 & 3 , now going on.... birthdays coming next month 33 & 31) . But, my Furbabies are MY PRIDE & JOY ..( NO " VISITATION " NO HOLIDAY RELATIVE" (PLAY NICE.. B.S.) ..Anyway..love meeting dog 🐕 lovers ...we're family .

Yall have no idea how many times I'm going to be re reading your comments. Thank you so much.

I understand your feeling of not wanting to be anywhere. Sometimes I feel like I just disappear into thin air and I would be OK with that. I understand we’re just being is hard. You’re not alone.

I definitely relate. When I feel like that, I take a step back and I think of all the good around me. Make a list! It can be small things, like falls coming back around so pumpkin smells and the sky is prettier. Or it could be big things, family or work related achievements. Really hope it gets better for you soon

Zoloft ( Sertraline) is my " go to" as far as Antidepressants . I was on Wellbutrin ( bupropion) for a long time , as it worked , but felt like after a few years ( just stopped) so, with DOCTOR'S HELP!!( I dosed down , and got off of it) . I've heard people say the same about Zoloft, but when I try " going off" ( it just doesn't go well for me) . So, that's why I just stay with my 100mg. The other pills that REALLY help me ( EVERYONE is different!!) is Topamax ( Topiramate) for migraines, mood stabilizer, wt.loss, ... And Klonopin ( Clonazepam) for Anxiety , GAD. Alot of Drs. have anureisms about prescribing Klonopin ( "automatically makes you a freaking junkie" ) .I work days, and my hubby works mostly 3rd( unless it's "overtime " then it's 2nd/3rd...7p-7a)

Coping is hard like you me and my husband is on Different shifts I also feel like I am going thew it alone if you find something that helps you. Please let me know

When I was on bupropion, I had to have it adjusted a few times. My final dosage was 450 MG. That really helped me. Maybe talked to your doc and see if anything can be adjusted. I hope you feel better soon ❤️

The medication changing thing is totally normal. It's been happening to me for years. I've upped and lowered doses and completely changed medications at times because my body has become used to them, so don't feel bad about that. As for the other feeling, finding a group to belong in (whether that be rl or online) or a small hobby (mine is writing/role playing) can help you feel less alone. Or just find other people with similar interests to you. But remember one thing, you are going through anything alone! 💕

Sorry 150 MG of bupropion xl